After Math!

Man it was awesome...
Awesome till i had fall and miraculously I survived!!!
Suppose to be hospitalized and i just walked away with few bruises


And some people have been telling about jesus image appeared in the Chapel
And they say is a miracle...
Let me say about miracle...!!!


Before i was born.. Doc told my mom it's confirm a baby girl!!!
And wat u came out as???? A boy..


2nd Miracle.. They say i couldn't talk nor hear!!!!! But wat happen??? I started speaking at the age of 7 and i can hear!.. I remember my mom used to take me to SJMC just to do the speech therapy and the doctor thinks i was dumb to arrange blocks and hear music... Come on.. My favourite was MJ and MC Hammer!!! Takan i tak tahu bunyi semua!!!!!   


3rd Miracle.. People thought i was a very slow learner.... Very slow till people have gaven up hope on me... But wat happen 22 yrs later??? A degree Graduated??? =)) I have to thank few people that has not lost hope in me.. 1st up my tadika teachers.. where i see the little note being written on the pic which motivates me...and parents =)

4th Miracle...Slip and fell down at tanah lot! and My head was banged on the rocks!!!! and guess wat.. i only walk away with few bruises... Am i lucky or another miracle???

So don' talk about miracles to me cuz i feel like a miracle kid!

Pressure =(

Counting down the days...

Days that he has been looking for..

A Trip... 

A trip he needed badly..

It has been his dream to hit that place when he was a teenager

Maybe it's about time..

To release all the stress he went through..

Love life.. work life... too much of things to think about...

Maybe this will be the medication for it...

To be away from the world that he knew to explore this new place..

He has been pressured at times... 

He feels he's not performing the best he could

He feels that something disturbs him...

But he fails to realize what has been disturbing all these while...

But he knows... it's gonna be a good one For all he has gone through!!!

Time to take the Change

Cheated..
He felt it..
It was too cold for him to accept it...


His friend said a fact but the truth..
But his friend thinks that coming out from his family would be easy enough..
With that sad thing he had.. He was still able to talk


In that time..
He just lies down in the room..
Thinking wat to do....
He felt it's time to ignore people...
Live in the shadows of darkness again...
Less interaction with people..
Who ever from the past just used him as their shoulder to cry on.. He feels that they shouldn't be cared anymore!!!
He gotta learn the hard way...
By not missing people.. He gotta take the challenge which he also thinks it maybe ridiculous..
He wished that he was born without feelings at times...
Just work work work...


By working... He learns things everyday..
He has his goals to achieve..
He still feels that he should leave to United Kingdom
Just join his cousin which been calling him down for donkey years
If he gets it....

He might just use this term "Seperti Kacang Melupakan Kulit"


But... he still wants the people who has cheated on him to succeed in life...

Move on...

It was an unusual day for him,
Sleepless nights as he looks up in the ceiling while listening to his collections
It was a miss call
So he decided to call back
And he hear her voice


It was pretty awkward when you don;t have much to say and yet still wanna continue the convo
He knew she didn't tell him something but he kinda figured it out long time
Due to her strange actions and so on..
Even he has been acting very strange with her..
Till something told him that to leave her... But he's too nice to leave anyone hanging


Till she whispers those words which made him sad...
Sad not for gettin her..
But sad due to the guy she curse is now back into her life
She seems can't live without him
But He feels that she could get someone better than him..
He betrayed her.. but she forgives him..


The question is.... If she has done similar to wat he has done(Same bf)??? Will he ever willing forgiving her over and over again?


Time for him(not the BF) to move on...
He has to think where people don't care about feelings..
Now he has to realize that people make use of him


Now when someone says "I love you " to him..
Only thing will strike on his mind is 
" For how long? As feelings are like seasons..They come and go"


Sadness plays it part... but he has to take up a challenge 


MOVE ON!