Time to take the Change

Cheated..
He felt it..
It was too cold for him to accept it...


His friend said a fact but the truth..
But his friend thinks that coming out from his family would be easy enough..
With that sad thing he had.. He was still able to talk


In that time..
He just lies down in the room..
Thinking wat to do....
He felt it's time to ignore people...
Live in the shadows of darkness again...
Less interaction with people..
Who ever from the past just used him as their shoulder to cry on.. He feels that they shouldn't be cared anymore!!!
He gotta learn the hard way...
By not missing people.. He gotta take the challenge which he also thinks it maybe ridiculous..
He wished that he was born without feelings at times...
Just work work work...


By working... He learns things everyday..
He has his goals to achieve..
He still feels that he should leave to United Kingdom
Just join his cousin which been calling him down for donkey years
If he gets it....

He might just use this term "Seperti Kacang Melupakan Kulit"


But... he still wants the people who has cheated on him to succeed in life...

Move on...

It was an unusual day for him,
Sleepless nights as he looks up in the ceiling while listening to his collections
It was a miss call
So he decided to call back
And he hear her voice


It was pretty awkward when you don;t have much to say and yet still wanna continue the convo
He knew she didn't tell him something but he kinda figured it out long time
Due to her strange actions and so on..
Even he has been acting very strange with her..
Till something told him that to leave her... But he's too nice to leave anyone hanging


Till she whispers those words which made him sad...
Sad not for gettin her..
But sad due to the guy she curse is now back into her life
She seems can't live without him
But He feels that she could get someone better than him..
He betrayed her.. but she forgives him..


The question is.... If she has done similar to wat he has done(Same bf)??? Will he ever willing forgiving her over and over again?


Time for him(not the BF) to move on...
He has to think where people don't care about feelings..
Now he has to realize that people make use of him


Now when someone says "I love you " to him..
Only thing will strike on his mind is 
" For how long? As feelings are like seasons..They come and go"


Sadness plays it part... but he has to take up a challenge 


MOVE ON!

Song worth Bitter memories

At wee hours..A song being played...
A Song which he didn't hear for sometime...
A Song that brought back his old memories...
Which brought some painful moments and also sweet ones

He just looked into his old pics of his in year 2009
So many changes in him,
In terms of Maturity of himself ,
But he was feeling lonely...
Thinks as there's no point to love anyone...
Or maybe he fears that it would happen once again

He knows he's not ready for another rejection
As he knows, most of them treats him as a friend nor just as a bestie
But he still thanks the lord for what ever blessings he has given,
He still has hopes which the lord will never let him down

It was the day he met her..

June 18th 2008
It was almost evening...
When he knew something good is gonna come...
The day he await for...
Thinking it would be the one for him...


Then she came...
With his dad smiling
It was a greatest surprise for him as he was expecting something different
The expression he gave was simply priceless..
No words could describe his feelings for it...
It was like a Match made in heaven..


The next day.. He eventually said to him self that he's gonna take it...
Took it to various places...
He enjoys it... A smile on his face...
He didn't knew he was getting it... NO way he ever dreamt of it...
His friends came over... to see her...
They Praise for her beauty...
The sleekness and so on...


Years went by.. His feeling grew stronger...
Like there's a bonding between both of them...
Like mutual understanding... 
She has never let him down...Always there to give the best...
Never once gave up...But if her opponent was greater than her... she has to give it up..
When he sees his baby hurts.. He can't take it.. even a single scratch.. 
No one realizes the bonding he has for her...Many of them think it's fantasy...
It may be fantasy for them.. But for him... she's always the one he cares
She always brings him to place in one piece...
Always on his side... In good nor in bad times...
Eventually he was down... She was there to be with him.. letting him to release his anger on her
He loves her so much till he spends alot on her...


So many shots of it being taken...
So many scene happened 
So many video shoot being done


She's already 3 this year..
But it seems like yesterday he met her...
He always wishes that she will always be with him forever more...

His dearest Monalisa....

She is...

Well today i decide to blog on someone..
Her name well... just keep it for last aiight


Well i knew her since my diploma days..
When she was in business and i was in Hotel Management
Just like normal other college kids.. we were basically close 
Until certain time where people started to hate her and so on... passing false remarks on her


So it still didn't stop me from contacting her
But then we some how lost contact due to she didn't had her hp as she was using her mom's hp
So yeah.. Thanks to friendster and facebook, we manage to keep contact..


Till like Last year when we manage to meet up after so freaking long... and Just imagine she asked me to go to her house...
I was a lil Nervous as that time i was going to her house and 1st time seeing her family and so on
But her family was aiight... welcome me well... i was pretty shy tho!!!
But her dad is strict but loving dad... So i don't blame him for being over protective over his daughter
Took her out and have fun at various places...Sunway, Curve... Ikano....


But came to a time when she was really down during last year i think...
She was crying alot.. and basically she can't tell it out to many people as not many people know about her bf
So i was there for her and so on... Was a person who lend his shoulder to her to cry on... Cuz i hate woman crying infront of me...


Met her more often and so on
but something in me like felt something for her... damn!!!! I hated that part
Not gonna explain it here as it was like our bad times
But things became aiight when her parents found a guy for her
Was happy as she followed her parents advise
So till today i still care for her and yeah... I love the way she calls me panda bobo.. It makes me special as i call her Bebo... Hahahahah!!!! I remember once she eventually changed her name on Facebook


I used to recall the times when we used to have heart to heart talks about relationships and stuff like that... Could just remember when we walked outside of Sunway Pyramid and we just talked about stuff that might happened in the future... and she was so worried about certain things which she needed a lil push from somewhere...




But... it was a a month ago when i saw her... she lost so much of weight which i nearly teared actually *to be honest* seeing her so sickly due to certain reasons.. However... i just couldn't my self being a typical me... just disturbing her... like the old days...


Let those moments go 1st.. and i promise i will take you out okiee.. i know you would read this blog =)


She is....

Rachel Menaka.....

June 26th 2009

He roses from the bed,
It was another sad day for him,
Sad due to he was betrayed by the name of love
As he walked out from the room...
His mother greeted him as he walked away in sadness


As he walked away, his mother shouted and said
"Hey! Michael Jackson is dead!"
For a moment he thought his mother wanted to make fool outta him
Till he saw on the news...
News which he still can't believe...
He sat down for a moment
Thinking what could go wrong in this year...
Love.. Favourite singer since childhood


He was so hopeless... Didn't know what to do...
So clueless... So sudden it happened..
As he went through all his Michael Jackson songs...
The songs he used to love.. and go crazy before the new singers came
He still didn't believe that he was gone... Gone forever more...


He was in tears...
Was praying to the mighty Lord...
Praying for to console himself
For the test he was going through... Mental torture


He couldn't stand it anymore...
He was going away from home
To visit his aunty and his cousin
On his way.. All he heard was Michael Jackson songs...


Sad messages were goin on radio stations..
Some eventually cried on air...
All he was doing is sitting alone in a bus while hearing those messages
Guess he wasn't the only one feeling sad about the lost


It was like a back to back song of his
He was pretty pist
His favourite wasn't being played on air..
It always has been the Billie Jean.. Thriller... Beat It
He was like WTF
He was instantly texting on air to play something else
But nothing comes in return


Till today.... He still believes that his music lives forever more.....

RIP Michael Jackson!

Streets he passes by...

As he passes by,
There were few people on the streets
Wondering where to go...
Wondering where to sleep..
No sign of a bus nor taxi


As he passes by,
Where some of them are homeless
Sleeping at the corridors 
Young Old... No one knows
It's a pity to see them in that condition
But who to be blame for them to be on the streets.. They or someone else?


As he observes,
They sleep with unity
Sharing whatever they have
Cardboards, Bags as their pillow
It's weird to see them sharing things during the night 
In day time... They fight for survival.