Pictures

As he was cleaning up his room,
He found certain things which he shouldn't have seen
Some of the old pictures drops out from the shelf..
Pictures of himself with his old school friends...


Some of the pictures made him sad..
It just he was like "forever alone case"
Taking pictures all by himself...
without any friends along with him..


Some pictures of him being round..
Some pictures of him being the Upper pants...
at times he actually wonders how things changes everything..
At times, he really thank the hip hop culture and also the rap culture..
For changing him at times..
As he saw those old pictures of him during the younger days in Secondary was too humiliating


He actually was made fun by his batch days..
Was as a laughing stock...
Till the years of Form 5..
Where certain people made impact on his life style...
Not much but a lil improvement from the past...


Not much of difference from college life and school life
Being mocked as usual..
School guys who are smarter than him was like world on their own..
Till came to a birthday function..
Where he and his buddy was called by some matured girls... and He was being treated as a King..
This was in 2006..
Massive year which he was camwhoring 
Elder Girls cuddling him as his old school friends saw him and made it as a topic of the night to gossip..
The topic was... Long lost friend forgotten his school friends!


As time goes on...
He thought to himself that he could be just naive 
As he thought that girls loves those guys who are trustworthy type of people..... 
He did got himself involve in a relationship.. but what he didn't know is that he didn't know the pain which he might end up getting as he went too deep..


He still kept the pictures of him and his ex during the christmas 2008 
As she came to his house for christmas...
Being all cuddly and was thinking that he couldn't live without her..

Things change from that moment... 
He was badly hit and damaged..
Damaged till he cries and wonders what mistake he did till he deserved the greatest punishment of all
Was he not romantic enough? Wasn't he fast enough to understand her?
Wasn't he appealing enough? Or he even thought that he wasn't the one to had sex with...


He started socializing...
Learning certain things in life..
Trying his level best to understand games being set by human nature..
And also trying his level best to avoid certain people from getting into that trap..


The duration was long enough...
Long in term it was almost more than 2 years..


From every moments that he does..
He takes some images of it..
Not because of the fun sake...
It just to show that he had good times...
Friends or Co-Workers
All the same....
All he ever wanted to prove is that... he enjoys life

Sand Castle in the Sand...

Have you Just imagine yourself...
Near the beach side...
Hearing the Sounds of the waves... splashing on the shore..


Just sitting near the shore...
While feel the strong breeze..
As you admire certain things...
Like a child playing with her tools..
Creating Sandcastle....with her own imagination of she will be the princess and waiting for the prince..
Boys with their kites.. to see how high the kites can soar!


Couples walking on shore...
Holding hand to hand...
Smiles.. Giggle while hugging...
As they enjoy the view of the sunset...
The Golden age people.. gossiping to another golden age person..
Talking about their past on how they used to be...
While holding on to their Grandsons and daughter...

It's amazing when you see this in life.. when you're alone..

cuz...

You being observant and... you will appreciate life more than anything else

Life is not all about problems.. But there will be some good times...
Always cherish the good memories and learn from the bad ones....
There are times where we can't be patience at all... Cuz needing instant answers..
But we failed to realize... there will be a day the answers will be answered...
but it takes time... 


Some answer within short period and some takes even years to figure it out..
But hey!
That's Life...No one has instruction Manual to live!

Claude - Afterthought (2011)

Unusual weekend

How screwed can it be?
System was freaking slow..

You can't do any proper auditing

You can't even surf the net

The Pc over her is a piece of trash!

Called up the Networking guy.. he's telling System problem..
Called up the person incharge of system.. He's telling the other way around!
Seriously What the fuck is goin on!

Can't take it anymore!!
Summore today suspected for over flowing
Aiyooo!!!! My weekend die lahhhh!!!!

After Math!

Man it was awesome...
Awesome till i had fall and miraculously I survived!!!
Suppose to be hospitalized and i just walked away with few bruises


And some people have been telling about jesus image appeared in the Chapel
And they say is a miracle...
Let me say about miracle...!!!


Before i was born.. Doc told my mom it's confirm a baby girl!!!
And wat u came out as???? A boy..


2nd Miracle.. They say i couldn't talk nor hear!!!!! But wat happen??? I started speaking at the age of 7 and i can hear!.. I remember my mom used to take me to SJMC just to do the speech therapy and the doctor thinks i was dumb to arrange blocks and hear music... Come on.. My favourite was MJ and MC Hammer!!! Takan i tak tahu bunyi semua!!!!!   


3rd Miracle.. People thought i was a very slow learner.... Very slow till people have gaven up hope on me... But wat happen 22 yrs later??? A degree Graduated??? =)) I have to thank few people that has not lost hope in me.. 1st up my tadika teachers.. where i see the little note being written on the pic which motivates me...and parents =)

4th Miracle...Slip and fell down at tanah lot! and My head was banged on the rocks!!!! and guess wat.. i only walk away with few bruises... Am i lucky or another miracle???

So don' talk about miracles to me cuz i feel like a miracle kid!

Pressure =(

Counting down the days...

Days that he has been looking for..

A Trip... 

A trip he needed badly..

It has been his dream to hit that place when he was a teenager

Maybe it's about time..

To release all the stress he went through..

Love life.. work life... too much of things to think about...

Maybe this will be the medication for it...

To be away from the world that he knew to explore this new place..

He has been pressured at times... 

He feels he's not performing the best he could

He feels that something disturbs him...

But he fails to realize what has been disturbing all these while...

But he knows... it's gonna be a good one For all he has gone through!!!

Time to take the Change

Cheated..
He felt it..
It was too cold for him to accept it...


His friend said a fact but the truth..
But his friend thinks that coming out from his family would be easy enough..
With that sad thing he had.. He was still able to talk


In that time..
He just lies down in the room..
Thinking wat to do....
He felt it's time to ignore people...
Live in the shadows of darkness again...
Less interaction with people..
Who ever from the past just used him as their shoulder to cry on.. He feels that they shouldn't be cared anymore!!!
He gotta learn the hard way...
By not missing people.. He gotta take the challenge which he also thinks it maybe ridiculous..
He wished that he was born without feelings at times...
Just work work work...


By working... He learns things everyday..
He has his goals to achieve..
He still feels that he should leave to United Kingdom
Just join his cousin which been calling him down for donkey years
If he gets it....

He might just use this term "Seperti Kacang Melupakan Kulit"


But... he still wants the people who has cheated on him to succeed in life...