A slightest pat which reminds of your memories...

Heading to bed in the morning..

Feeling hungry as he walks down to his living room..

As his mom was just amazed he was still awake...

His mom knew him by his body language that he was feeling hungry

So she decided not to cook and told him to wash up and just  zoom into one of the restaurants..

He without thinking twice.. just got into the car started the ride and drove it...

As he found a park spot...

Walks into the restaurant which his eyes were on the food rather than the people of the surroundings

Few seconds later...His mom came and tapped him and said..

"Hey!!!! Look who's here!!! "

He was like "Errrr who lahhh... i'm sleepy plus hungry lahhh"

His mom replied "Your Tadika Teacher lahh!!!"

He was just stunned for a min...Speechless to be exact to be said.. As my mom just tapped  on his ex's tadika teacher... and the moment she(teacher) saw him... She just hugged him! and she was so stunned to see him too as few days before this incident happened, his teacher was asking all about him towards his mom and also passed her number to his brother...

She was very happy to see him as she treated him like a pet student in her class in the year 1994...and she patted him and said "I'm so proud of you!"

She had the sweetest smile that he knows when he was a lil kid.... All he could do is just stand there and smile... Then she added 

"My oh my!! Look how tall you are now!!.. I heard about the great news that you wanna do your masters now"

Then he replied " Well... fed up of working tho and thought of doing studies once again... Kinda fed up with working life for a moment... Still had the studying feeling tho"

"You know how proud am i? You're the only student i know from all these years doing masters..."

As the ladies were doing their usual talks... He thinks deeply.. of the years which he had to struggle during his years at Kindergarten... As he sees himself during the times where he was small and was unable to speak like other kids... Practically he was the Silent one in the class... without any interaction with other students...was "forever alone" case... It was like he went to school.. Just mind his own business and just got back home...Till his mom had to check on him at school every single day just to keep an eye on him..Very less friends... He was afraid to socialize... even these days too he always fears to socialize... but thanks to facebook and twitter... he grew up from his feared zone...

Others used to impress the teacher alot... Massively alot by their talent of story telling... That moment, he was into cars.. he loved remote control cars... or even hot wheels was his thing that time... He loved the passion of driving fast that very moment when his dad used to be a very fast driver...

Alot of teachers actually lost hope on him thinking he would not excel in life.. guess they were wrong...Most of them just stuck in degree but don't know the path aftermath of their qualifications... Some still struggling... Some got their Degree's and Diploma but then Some of them doing things which is not even relevant to their course which they studied...Some of them just got married! 

After the ladies had their ladies chat, she advised him while she tapped him as he was a small kid to her... 

"Always pray my dearest one..Always pray that you will be covered by his precious blood and always be bold... don't give up hopes... I know you will always can do it...You have the determination which very rare people have it..I know you always try to give up very fast but nothing comes easy in life... I'll always pray for your good health"..

And she(teacher) just left... and his mom told him.. 

"I'm sure you will be wondering why is she praising you"

He was.. Blur as if he just woken up from bed...

" I met her few days before here and i told her the things you have achieved over these years after your education from that kindergarten until today... Did you know how proud was she.. and guess wat? she might be opening a hotel in Abu Dhabi"

He was just stunned and he replied

"Whattttt?????"


After all these years...he thought that his teachers would hate him for the things he hath done... Being the silent one... Doing alot of careless mistakes... Clumsy!...The amount of beating he received... Haih Priceless!!!

Closer

Days are coming closer..

For him to eventually leave his work place

Mixed Emotions comes along..

Happy...Sad... Even he doesn't know

Some asked him to stay..

Some told him to divert the course

But he sees this as a Safe Net

Things has been fine so far..

The things his aunty drafted out for him years back

Well eventually he thought it as a crap..

But it seems that it is really helping him alot...

It actually led him to think ahead at times..

Not to be accurate.. but a guide line along the way

Which eventually certain people they seems to head no where..

They feel as long they got a job... and it's safe...

There are pro's and con's about thinking ahead..

But in certain ways.. it's better you write whatever you planned ahead

So that when we see the past..

We will know where we stand...

Weird but true...

He didn't seem to see the paper for long

But something told him that taking Masters was his plann

And he's afraid about the next move which is...
He might head to UK

With his current situation..

He has not seen certain people yet..

He's just afraid things going too fast..

Now he feels the weight of burden on his shoulder..

But all he does is pray..

Pray till tears comes out...

Hoping things will be answered

Certain things makes him cry..

But he has to stay strong...

A Song which i'm crazy all about Last year 2011

if i had a penny that fell from above everytime i fell in love
i'll be rolling in my money, everyday would be sunny and i'll be looking forward to my next break up


if i had a penny that fell from above everytime i fell in love
i'll be rolling in my money, everyday would be sunny and i'll be looking forward to my next break up


girl we're done forever never last that long we're done


you did me wrong its one for one,


i dunno whats so god damn funnny .. RUN


run like the wind like you owe me one


lady in the XL clothes just sung


i shouldve seen it coming man i'm so dumb


if i go on like this
in no time i'll be rich
come on girl take a chance, i'm your man


if i had a penny that fell from above everytime i fell in love
i'll be rolling in my money, everyday would be sunny and i'll be looking forward to my next break up


if i had a penny that fell from above everytime i fell in love
i'll be rolling in my money, everyday would be sunny and i'll be looking forward to my next break up




soneya jee te karda mai kaul rewan
tere ghum nu mai apna kahan
sari khushiyan mai tenu deva ni


soneya jo asi chaunde oh nayio hona
mere naseeban ch vichorda
das tera dil mai jo haye mera ni mai kive morraa




if i go on like this in no time i'll be rich
come on girl take a chance, i'm your man




if i had a penny that fell from above everytime i fell in love
i'll be rolling in my money, everyday would be sunny and i'll be looking forward to my next break up


if i had a penny that fell from above everytime i fell in love
i'll be rolling in my money, everyday would be sunny and i'll be looking forward to my next break up


number 2 if you wanna go its up to you
another relationship is through
i dont know what to do its funny 
f*** you
you need to learn to take a clue 
cuz i never bitten more than my mouth can chew
no matter what i do i seem to lose


if i go on like this in no time i'll be rich
come on girl take a chance, i'm your man

A split sec decision...

As times goes...

Where he thinks the Unexpected..

Something strikes into his head...

A thing which he would never thought he might do it..

A thing which he might even dreamt of it!

It's called MASTERS!!!!

He had to think about it about couple of nights...

As he was having sleepless nights..
He went to church... eventually it was close..

But the statue of Mother Mary was outside and it was still open

He bought some candles and lit the candles
He didn't want to kneel down as it was a road he had to kneel on!
But he prayed about certain things in his life... relationship life...
And also he even asked in his prayers that hoping this relationship would eventually work out till the end...

He prays that he don't want to repeat the mistake he did in the past 

and he prayed about thing about Masters...

As he hope this year would be an awesome year...
A year to learn things.. but lesser on the bitter side 

As he went to work...

His mood was pretty mood out

Just like doing his work and sleep all night long

But he just got his work done and 

He finally decided to take a drive to his college

As he was walking towards college,

He had this feeling,

A feeling which he had eventually when he was doing his diploma days

A feeling that which he really appreciate studies...

As he walks down the cafeteria...

He bump into few people he knew..

But just ignored them

He just felt that people should know him as a new person

He sits down with his laptop as he was suppose to enquire it with his pal

As he was so proud to do his Check-in Via four square

and also calling some his old juniors to check were they still around there

But something told him not to hope high on Masters as he wouldn't know 

that his dad would approve it..

He was there until his pal appeared,

They had this hand shake.. and immediately walked into the Student council

As there.. he and his pal could ever imagine the college days...

where they used to enroll themselves..

Then.. came this dude which knows nuts about the Hospitality which made them frustrated

as they walked away to the SHTCA...
At there... he could only refer back to one lecturer...
A lecturer who he knew since diploma days...

A very simple man...

Direct person...

no hidden agenda's 

Always a man with humor..

No matter how sad you maybe on that day... he's always there...

To hear you out.. and also he tries his level best to help..

That is why he always goes back to his lecturer for his advise..

He saw his lecturer and his lecturer asked him this..

"You jokers really liveless, why on earth you guys have to come back"
As then he told that he would want to pursue his Masters..

and the topic didn't end there itself..

But it went about the batch where he used to study with..

Questions about classmates which he has no idea what they are up to these days..

He was totally thankful about his life...

Some of them were jobless for long...

Some of them just decided to jump work...

Some of them working their asses off...

But for him... He was working from the day he didn't get his results!

And he sees himself progressing in hotel industry

But his friends doesn't seem to see what his vision it is..

All they see is money...Position in hotels...

But his vision is always bigger...

His vision is to build hotels...

Just like the one he's working with...

He had learn things where certain people didn't get the chance to do so...

He had learn the hotels basics... And he had experience from the hotel which is completed at 60%

He see things!!! Vision it!!! how would it be once operating..

None of his batch has ever seen it...
Alot of lecturers were puzzled when he mention his hotel's name

But this lecturer... Given him the full support! 

As he told, no point working in big hotels... Get name and do wat!

That was his answer.. which stunned the two guys...

Lecturer added on by saying that as long you get experience

It's good enough...
Both of them just looked stunned which no KDU lecturer would ever give that advise

Most of them in KDU will advise students to do it at International chains as they act professionalism

As He and his friend was studying in this line... Both of them had the professionalism!

And also.. He trains his staff to be professionalism by the way of speech

the body posture 

and etc...

And the lecturer said.. "it's always good to do masters after all. Not for the sake of doing it. it would be your safe net in the future"

Then he(lecturer) explains the routes that can be done if masters being taken up..

All these two guys do is to listen attentive to the words he was trying to explain the difference of Degree and Masters...Both of them then convinced to do the Masters!

As the conversation went on... till 10.30am...

He was feeling the tiredness

and he left the place...

When he came home... He was a lil dissapointed as the cost of it was extremely high
As his mom told.. Don't think too much and go get some rest...

As he was sleeping... His mom actually informed his Dad...

And to his surprise..His dad approved it...

Wake me Up when December ends!

It seems a nice month
Not for him..
Things getting bad to worst..
his dad was admitted in the hospital..A day before his birthday

He just couldn't just believe it for the reason of him getting admitted
Actually... He didn't had the mood to celebrate his own birthday
All he wanted to do is get wasted...
That's all!!!
It sounds simple but just imagine your friends wanna do a surprise by bringing her and it didn't go as expected
Man he just didn't had the mood at all...
Thousand apologies being done also but it still won't be enough..


He comes to work...
Boss asked him to stay back for appraisal 
But 1st day he had to wait for at least 4 hours
The next day..
Appraisal being performed
Boss feels he's lacking of something...
There goes down his spirit
The hardworking spirit... Just felt like.. Just leave the job and just stay at home..
But he has to think about the future...
too many things ran on his mind...
About his dad... about financial that is gonna affect him badly...


It's about time he feels that his dad should take time off...
and actually just relax himself like any other retired man would do... but it's not stopping him
One side of me just says that he should leave his passion for his father's sake... Learn something from him and eventually make hella outta money
But he rethinks again... He fought for this line... but yet.. he has to sacrifice himself for the company... making it grow...
Making it well establish and also create a good repo with other hotels....

Pictures

As he was cleaning up his room,
He found certain things which he shouldn't have seen
Some of the old pictures drops out from the shelf..
Pictures of himself with his old school friends...


Some of the pictures made him sad..
It just he was like "forever alone case"
Taking pictures all by himself...
without any friends along with him..


Some pictures of him being round..
Some pictures of him being the Upper pants...
at times he actually wonders how things changes everything..
At times, he really thank the hip hop culture and also the rap culture..
For changing him at times..
As he saw those old pictures of him during the younger days in Secondary was too humiliating


He actually was made fun by his batch days..
Was as a laughing stock...
Till the years of Form 5..
Where certain people made impact on his life style...
Not much but a lil improvement from the past...


Not much of difference from college life and school life
Being mocked as usual..
School guys who are smarter than him was like world on their own..
Till came to a birthday function..
Where he and his buddy was called by some matured girls... and He was being treated as a King..
This was in 2006..
Massive year which he was camwhoring 
Elder Girls cuddling him as his old school friends saw him and made it as a topic of the night to gossip..
The topic was... Long lost friend forgotten his school friends!


As time goes on...
He thought to himself that he could be just naive 
As he thought that girls loves those guys who are trustworthy type of people..... 
He did got himself involve in a relationship.. but what he didn't know is that he didn't know the pain which he might end up getting as he went too deep..


He still kept the pictures of him and his ex during the christmas 2008 
As she came to his house for christmas...
Being all cuddly and was thinking that he couldn't live without her..

Things change from that moment... 
He was badly hit and damaged..
Damaged till he cries and wonders what mistake he did till he deserved the greatest punishment of all
Was he not romantic enough? Wasn't he fast enough to understand her?
Wasn't he appealing enough? Or he even thought that he wasn't the one to had sex with...


He started socializing...
Learning certain things in life..
Trying his level best to understand games being set by human nature..
And also trying his level best to avoid certain people from getting into that trap..


The duration was long enough...
Long in term it was almost more than 2 years..


From every moments that he does..
He takes some images of it..
Not because of the fun sake...
It just to show that he had good times...
Friends or Co-Workers
All the same....
All he ever wanted to prove is that... he enjoys life

Sand Castle in the Sand...

Have you Just imagine yourself...
Near the beach side...
Hearing the Sounds of the waves... splashing on the shore..


Just sitting near the shore...
While feel the strong breeze..
As you admire certain things...
Like a child playing with her tools..
Creating Sandcastle....with her own imagination of she will be the princess and waiting for the prince..
Boys with their kites.. to see how high the kites can soar!


Couples walking on shore...
Holding hand to hand...
Smiles.. Giggle while hugging...
As they enjoy the view of the sunset...
The Golden age people.. gossiping to another golden age person..
Talking about their past on how they used to be...
While holding on to their Grandsons and daughter...

It's amazing when you see this in life.. when you're alone..

cuz...

You being observant and... you will appreciate life more than anything else

Life is not all about problems.. But there will be some good times...
Always cherish the good memories and learn from the bad ones....
There are times where we can't be patience at all... Cuz needing instant answers..
But we failed to realize... there will be a day the answers will be answered...
but it takes time... 


Some answer within short period and some takes even years to figure it out..
But hey!
That's Life...No one has instruction Manual to live!